A patient black man in micro media culture

Things have been the most hectic they’ve been all year.

I’m talking about over the course of only 2 weeks by the way.

I’ve had plenty of time to reflect on my life throughout this period.

I mean I shared the story of what I considered to be rock bottom for me.

Those are moments you really get to understand who you are at the core.

On my way to the bank today I got a chance to draw a conclusion:

I’m just a black man that’s dealing with feeling overwhelmed in a micro media culture

Some may define it as social media.

I think it’s so much more than just that though.

I had all the signs that this was inevitable though.

Some of my favorite shows were only 15 minutes in length (compared to half hour programs).

I was conditioned and maybe even prepared at one point for it.

I just fell off with my training at some point.

The only thing that I believe’s reviving me is my love for music again.

I’ve been recording myself over beats that I’ve found over the internet.

The problem was that I wasn’t sharing them.

I wasn’t allowing my voice to be heard amongst the millions.

Was it lack of confidence?

Maybe

Perfectionism syndrome?

Possibly

Whatever it was, I feel better and even more sure of myself moving forward.

I added being a black man so if you are one or even love one, there’s a chance you can relate.

Odds are continuously shown to be against anyone that falls in my demographic, but here I am.

With that said, you can find me on my socials if that’s how you prefer to stay connected.

RealTalkAJ